Words of Nefie

Here’s hope that the spirit of Venus takes over the spirit of Mars.

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The dreams are relentless. Sometimes, I wake up feeling a sickness. But, I feel it before I sleep as if a spell’s come over me. My vision becomes slightly blurred and a tingling sensation occurs. I know it will happen again; my dreams will be intense. Sometimes, I’m shaken like a nightmare has me awaken. It’s abrupt when I wake up. And, I’m in a cold sweat and have a loss of breath. I think to text and have the feelings expressed. But, just like in a drug induced high, I come down and my thoughts go sound. I breath, and, seemingly, from the spell I’ve been released. Then, I go back to sleep just to have similar dreams. So, no change in the tale; I’m still stuck in the spell.

This spell, a curse? When not dreaming, I feel the worse. I knew I was taking a risk the first time we kissed… I wanted bliss not knowing it would end like this. Who knew we’d mostly be apart where dreams would play the major part. Maybe, those times I didn’t text is why I feel this regret; all the feelings I didn’t share is the reason you don’t seem to care. But, I’m stuck in something, wishing I could back and make it nothing. Is it withdrawal? A symptom of sorrow? The dreams aren’t haunting; is the distant too daunting? I wish I could say what has me this way: a cycle of dreams and feeling unusual things. May it be taken away? May it stay? A curse or love spell, I just ask to be well.

Words of Nefie

Sometimes, it must be taken there; you must feel despair to repair.

Words of Nefie

The truth is hard to receive, as a lie is easy to deceive. And, it may hurt, but never like how a lie hurts.

Words of Nefie

Thank the Earth for giving us life, and apologize for taking hers away.

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I know your heart is miserable, because truth and principle is not what is visible
I know you settle for less, because how do you get what is truly best?
I know you hurt in this society, because of your being of a different variety
I know you must fight, because how else to do you support right?

Words of Nefie

Self sabotage is an another form of suicide.