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The dreams are relentless. Sometimes, I wake up feeling a sickness. But, I feel it before I sleep as if a spell’s come over me. My vision becomes slightly blurred and a tingling sensation occurs. I know it will happen again; my dreams will be intense. Sometimes, I’m shaken like a nightmare has me awaken. It’s abrupt when I wake up. And, I’m in a cold sweat and have a loss of breath. I think to text and have the feelings expressed. But, just like in a drug induced high, I come down and my thoughts go sound. I breath, and, seemingly, from the spell I’ve been released. Then, I go back to sleep just to have similar dreams. So, no change in the tale; I’m still stuck in the spell.

This spell, a curse? When not dreaming, I feel the worse. I knew I was taking a risk the first time we kissed… I wanted bliss not knowing it would end like this. Who knew we’d mostly be apart where dreams would play the major part. Maybe, those times I didn’t text is why I feel this regret; all the feelings I didn’t share is the reason you don’t seem to care. But, I’m stuck in something, wishing I could back and make it nothing. Is it withdrawal? A symptom of sorrow? The dreams aren’t haunting; is the distant too daunting? I wish I could say what has me this way: a cycle of dreams and feeling unusual things. May it be taken away? May it stay? A curse or love spell, I just ask to be well.

Words of Nefie

Sometimes, it must be taken there; you must feel despair to repair.

Words of Nefie

The truth is hard to receive, as a lie is easy to deceive. And, it may hurt, but never like how a lie hurts.

Words of Nefie

In need of long overdue vital energy.

Words of Nefie

She didn’t want to talk to me. That was too depressing…

The Misadventure of Bobby James

 

Words of Nefie

I’ve learned too well; something sub par will not conquer hell.

“I Remember Everything” 

Words of Nefie

“We are so out of touch with ourselves, we fail to protect our own existence.”

N.W.O.: A Guide for Creating Constructive Change

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