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Everything is a gift and curse
For one, bliss
for another, hurt
I just want an even exchange
Exalt in pleasure
or exalt in pain

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The dreams are relentless. Sometimes, I wake up feeling a sickness. But, I feel it before I sleep as if a spell’s come over me. My vision becomes slightly blurred and a tingling sensation occurs. I know it will happen again; my dreams will be intense. Sometimes, I’m shaken like a nightmare has me awaken. It’s abrupt when I wake up. And, I’m in a cold sweat and have a loss of breath. I think to text and have the feelings expressed. But, just like in a drug induced high, I come down and my thoughts go sound. I breath, and, seemingly, from the spell I’ve been released. Then, I go back to sleep just to have similar dreams. So, no change in the tale; I’m still stuck in the spell.

This spell, a curse? When not dreaming, I feel the worse. I knew I was taking a risk the first time we kissed… I wanted bliss not knowing it would end like this. Who knew we’d mostly be apart where dreams would play the major part. Maybe, those times I didn’t text is why I feel this regret; all the feelings I didn’t share is the reason you don’t seem to care. But, I’m stuck in something, wishing I could back and make it nothing. Is it withdrawal? A symptom of sorrow? The dreams aren’t haunting; is the distant too daunting? I wish I could say what has me this way: a cycle of dreams and feeling unusual things. May it be taken away? May it stay? A curse or love spell, I just ask to be well.

Words of Nefie

There is always someone. Sometimes, they’re already there. Sometimes, they come to you. Sometimes, you have to find them.

Words of Nefie

You shouldn’t try to be perfect for someone else; you’re already perfect for someone else.

Words of Nefie

Love will make you think you’ll never go to war, but then you do. But, this time, you’ll know for sure you have something worth the fighting for.

Words of Nefie

Nothing can be perfect, but everything can be worth it.

Words of Nefie

You cannot be perfect for someone else without realizing your perfect self.